"Love lifts us up where we belong..."

i'm safe back "home" in Vancouver. what is my home, anyway? New York? surely not. Maine? i don't think so. Vancouver? i don't know. it's easier not to choose, and just to say, "i'm a citizen of Heaven." anyway, i'm back in Vancouver, where i happen to reside right now. hm.

i've been awake now for close to 24 hours. woohoo!!

this exhaustion--combination of jet lag, an early flight, and general silliness-- was not a healthy state in which to watch "Moulin Rouge."
i'd never seen it before, and i'd only heard dodgy things about it, like the fact that it's set in a brothel. but, oh man. it was scintillating. visually creative, musically excellent, and full of passion and depth. i don't think i've ever wept so much over a movie! (except maybe the Passion...but there's really no comparison)

i'm not sure if you're aware, but the faithfulness of the Lord is something that gets me every time. i don't even fully understand it, and i doubt i can put it into words...but it's there. anything to do with covenant, His jealousy, the book of Hosea...wow. even thinking about it as i type brings tears to my eyes and causes my throat to close up. every song i write is about this same thing-- His faithful love for us.
He never leaves us. we might go out and prostitute ourselves, but He draws us back again, wipes off our makeup, and speaks tenderly to us.

He keeps His covenant of love to us. we broke our covenant with Him. but He doesn't want us to have to experience the punishments that go along with breaking covenant. so He became one of us, and kept our part of the covenant. He kept His part perfectly, and then when we failed, He kept our part perfectly for us. thank You, Jesus.
if you humble yourself, and can see how you have failed your part, and how He has never failed-- you can restore your covenant with Him! reconciliation--yay!
thank You Jesus for Your unfailing love, which covers over a multitude of wrongs. we need You.

ANYWAY--
(sometimes i tangent like Paul did)
Moulin Rouge meant so much to me because it's all about faithful love. she gives herself to all kinds of men, in order to get what she wants...and he is torn apart by jealousy. he never gives up on her though...sigh...he promises to always love her.

i wept and wept and wept and wept...
my usual weeping buddy, Kirsten, had eyes as dry as...something really dry :o)
and Darren Hailes was no help in the weeping department either.

maybe, next time, i'll watch it after a full nights sleep, with people who understand my ridiculous emotions.
and, maybe, next time, i'll blog when my sentences make sense, and when my eyelids don't feel like marble.

goodnight